So, I'm back from vacation. Not that it matters much. As of right now, I feel like grabbing my suitcase (my shit is still packed) and heading out again. I stopped by home, I took a shower, slept in my own bed, re-fueled, but now it's time to be on the road again. Maybe Chicago, or Tuscon. Orlando, Atlanta, or hell, fuck continental. Lets go to San Remo, Nassau, Havana, Honolulu. Panama, Argentina, Peru, England, Germany, Greece.

Anywhere but D.C.
(It was nice to see you again, toots. But that was exactly how our meeting was not supposed to go.)
Fuck D.C. And that whole Virginia/Maryland concoction that surrounds it. I'm never going there again. For any fucking reason. It was all for nothing. I couldn't even sit down to a fucking conversation without feeling like I was being spied on. Which is all I really wanted. A fucking conversation. Too much to ask, I know.

But South Carolina wasn't bad.

The beach was nice. The ocean is incredible, as it always is. It makes me feel, and I could sit out in front of it all day, minue the 98 degree heatwave.

I didn't hit on any women while I was there, which is surprising. Granted, I spent a lot of time drunk. But that should encourage my "Hey look at me I have a penis"ness, but it did not. I guess my self-esteem took a hit this week, who knows why. I just couldn't summon up the balls to do it. Eh, it's okay. Women are over-rated anyways. Needless to say, after all the festivities had occured and we settled in to our rooms to sit in our respective stupors (drunk or stoned, take your pick), it ended up being a rather lonely weekend.

I need to find something fulfilling. I've already searched for something fun, something peaceful, some unique, something creative, something entertaining. And those are easy to find. Daily searches, it takes like an hour to find something peaceful, or something fun. To find something fulfilling is a lot more difficult.

I don't know if I'll ever be fulfilled.


p.s. I think, re-reading, I need to find a way to kick my swearing habit. All the fucking and asshole and cuntass shit bitch etc etc makes me sound like an angsty sixteen year old.